Since we as Christians are called to love Jesus and follow Him, should we pursue any of our dreams? Many people tell me to not chase my own desires. But if I’m listening to what God says, shouldn’t my desires line up with His? In psalms it says to delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart. I believe that. Our sole desire should be to be obedient in Christ but what about other desires? I want to play music and tour. I want to help people. Should I pursue those things? Should I go to college to learn music so I can be better at it? If so, then why does it seem like everytime I try to pursue these things they fall apart? Basically I just want to know what God wants my career to be. Because I have to earn money. But I want to have fun doing it
Monthly Archives: January 2009
i’m sitting in my room, thinking about how completely lost I am as far as direction goes. I’ve been in college for 3 years now and I suck at it. I’m going to a school that costs $25,000 a year. And by no means are my parents rich. But that’s the thing, they’re not rich, and I’m throwing their money away. I decided that I’m going to transfer after this semester and study music instead of communications. So I’ll probably be in school for another 2 years, but the good thing is this school is cheaper than my current one. Not by much, but about $5,000. But I’m not sure if God is calling me up to that school or not. I thought for a week, that He wanted me to go on tour with that band. 3 years ago i thought He wanted me to go to MNU and major in communications and be a sports broadcaster. Now my desire is music, I still am called to the broadcast world, but I’ll always be in the music realm. I just hope this helps me land in a touring band. But that’s not my identity. Jesus Christ is.
but I do feel like God is going to put me in a touring band because I have such a passion for it. It’s like when you’re a little kid and adults ask you what you want to be when you grow up. If i was asked that right now I would say that I want to be in a touring band, worshipping God every night, telling people about Jesus and making music. And they would laugh, because they don’t see what I see. They don’t see with eyes of faith. They don’t see the opportunity behind it. They don’t see the passion burning inside of me. But that’s okay. Because I do
Yesterday I was on facebook and on my news feed some pictures came up of the band I tried out for. They’re on tour right now. These pictures came up of them playing in Arkansas in front of a room full of kids. I was overwhelmed with sadness at that point. I thought to myself, “I could be there right now, I could’ve been in those pictures, I could’ve been making a difference and telling people about Jesus.”
I need to get back into church. I haven’t gone consistently in a few months. I’ve gone now and again and a few weeks in between but I need to be there every week. I struggle without that teaching every Sunday. Paul said in Corinthians that “the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.”. That’s so true because I want to go but I continue to sleep because of my late nights. I’m sorry Lord for not going this week. I love you
As the new year came in, I was at work, but now that i’m at home I think to myself about what i want to accomplish in 2009. Also, what things I plan on doing in 2009. In no order at all I plan to do these things:
-Follow Jesus more closely and listen to Him at all times
-Play guitar more and learn more
-Write and record 10 new songs on guitar and also write more lyrics
-Read my Bible more
-Make new friends
-Transfer to North Central University
-Hopefully finish school
-Study music theory
-Make good money to buy better equipment
-Follow God’s will and not my own
