Vices (lyrics)

Eight years I’ve carried this burden, Eight years I’ve destroyed my soul 

Eight years I’ve dealt with this sickness, It’s created the darkest hole

My heart hasn’t felt such sorrow, Hasn’t handled such pain 

Nothing more sinister than this sin, that calls me by name 

Bound by chains for almost a decade, I cry out for deliverance 

Do I have faith no more?  Don’t I have two fists? 

There is only one way, to stop this pain. 

Only one road, the Lamb that was slain 

One Love, is all it takes 

To mend this heart. To cleanse this soul 

Infiltrate! Infiltrate! Infiltrate! 

Infiltrate! Infiltrate! Infiltrate! 

Heal.  The. Broken.  

Reach The World!

As I throw my burdens down

The weight is taken off my shoulders 

These shoulders I thought could take on the world 

They were broken long ago 

Disabled I stood, looking at the wounds 

The blood that fell from my eyes 

There are things I cannot erase from memory 

Things that are charred into my mind

The things I see are hideous, They are perverted 

They’re beauty shines only for a moment 

Behind the pretty face there is blackness and darkness 

Heartache, depression, suicide 

These answers are preached from their lips

They are liars, deceivers, thieves. 

Fame and fortune. Fame and fortune.  The two most important things

Can you smell the scorched flesh?, the burnt eyes, the calloused minds? 

The flames rise higher every second that passes by 

God help us all!

 

 

Pain and suffering

All around me i’m reminded of the hurt. The lost souls, the broken hearts, the falling tears.  It seems like these demons attack not only individuals but groups…families, companies, nations.  We are warriors! We are called to fight in these times!  We must raise our fists and lift our swords.  As we march into battle, as we fall to our knees in reverence.  And in that day we will be triumphant.  Our spirits brighten, our shadows fade.  As we cry up to the heavens in Worship to our Savior!  All hail King Jesus!

i’m weird

sometimes i sit and think to myself, “wow i am so weird.”  cuz i am weird. but i am a firm believer that everyone is a little weird at times. everyone has that “i’m weird” thing.  for some of my friends it’s that they like to play a lot of video games, some others it’s they are obsessed with disney movies, some of my friends say they’re going to marry the jonas brothers, some are really really into knitting.  but i love the weirdness in my friends. and i hope they love my weirdness. 

 

but that’s what makes us friends is that some stuff just cracks us up. like, jesse can yell really loud and i’ll start laughing. cuz i’m weird. haha. i know right?

Oh man…..

when i graduate college (1.5 yrs i’m so pumped) i’m not going to settle for any band that has an open guitar or vocalist spot, i’m not going to go for something that i know wouldn’t work out. I’m not going to go for a band that isn’t completely ON FIRE FOR CHRIST.  I can’t wait for my future band.  It might be a band that’s out there touring now, it might be a band that’s on hiatus, it might be a brand new band.  But I can’t wait.  God is setting up the people NOW to allow me to be a part of something great.  Not just a band, not just playing heavy music, not just meeting people or traveling, but being a part of something GREATER.  Being a part of a band that gets up on stage everynight and has something to say about Jesus to the crowd.  Has something laying on our hearts each and every day.  A band that prays together, parties together (Jesus party), hangs out together, and worships together.  I’m so excited for that day when i join, or the days leading up to that day when i find out there’s a position open in a worship band.  

I’m excited to be on tour and praise Jesus and read the Bible and pray while riding in the van.  When I get the opportunity to pray for people at the venues and the cities we play in.  Praise Jesus for it.  it’s gonna happen. no doubts. 

 

Hebrews 11:1-20

Now FAITH is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. 2 For by it the elders obtained a good testimony.
3 By  we FAITH understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that the things which are seen were not made of things which are visible. 
4 By FAITH Abel offered to God a more excellent sacrifice than Cain, through which he obtained witness that he was righteous, God testifying of his gifts; and through it he being dead still speaks. 
5 By FAITH Enoch was taken away so that he did not see death, “and was not found, because God had taken him”; for before he was taken he had this testimony, that he pleased God. 6But without FAITH it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him. 
7 By FAITH Noah, being divinely warned of things not yet seen, moved with godly fear, prepared an ark for the saving of his household, by which he condemned the world and became heir of the righteousness which is according to FAITH.
   
8 By FAITH Abraham obeyed when he was called to go out to the place which he would receive as an inheritance. And he went out, not knowing where he was going. 9 By FAITH he dwelt in the land of promise as in a foreign country, dwelling in tents with Isaac and Jacob, the heirs with him of the same promise; 10 for he waited for the city which has foundations, whose builder and maker is God. 
11 By FAITH Sarah herself also received strength to conceive seed, and she bore a child^[b] when she was past the age, because she judged Him FAITHFUL who had promised. 12 Therefore from one man, and him as good as dead, were born as many as the stars of the sky in multitude—innumerable as the sand which is by the seashore.
   
13 These all died in FAITH, not having received the promises, but having seen them afar off were assured of them,^[c] embraced them and confessed that they were strangers and pilgrims on the earth. 14 For those who say such things declare plainly that they seek a homeland. 15 And truly if they had called to mind that country from which they had come out, they would have had opportunity to return. 16 But now they desire a better, that is, a heavenly country. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for He has prepared a city for them.
   
17 By FAITH Abraham, when he was tested, offered up Isaac, and he who had received the promises offered up his only begotten son, 18 of whom it was said, “In Isaac your seed shall be called,”^[d] 19 concluding that God was able to raise him up, even from the dead, from which he also received him in a figurative sense. 
20 By FAITH Isaac blessed Jacob and Esau concerning things to come. 

 

I can’t wait, honestly. i’m so pumped.

Prayer Request

hey you guys, next time you guys lift your eyes to Jesus in prayer, please be praying for some things for me.  I will list some of the things I would like prayer for

 

Finances (that I get out of this whole i’ve dug and start to manage my money better)

Discipline (with things like finances, schoolwork, health, and my prayer life)

Protection (pray for my protection as the devil is really trying to get at me)

Patience (that i grow in Christ and be patient for all things i’m praying for)

Wisdom (that as I read the Bible more, God provides lots of wisdom for me)

Love (that i love all people, no matter what race, religion, status, or what they’ve done)

Gossip (that I stop gossiping and keep my mouth shut and love people)

Endurance (this goes along with patience, so i can hold out till the end!)

 

Thank you guys, love you all

So i have to wear skinny jeans?

Okay, I am sick of going to shows and seeing people wearing their skinny jeans, skin tight band shirts, multiple piercings, and fatty gauges. I would be fine with it if these kids rep’d this stuff in their daily lives. But the problem is people only do this stuff at shows. Cuz they wanna be seen. Some of it is the KC scene. I went to a concert with a buddy who is from CA and he said the KC kids would get killed at a show out in Cali. It’s cuz the KC scene is all about fashion.
I am a big guy and can’t wear skinny jeans and skinny band shirts. I don’t want gauges or piercings. So when people look at me they probably don’t think I listen to metal or something. I do listen to metal. You know why? IT IS ABOUT THE MUSIC AND NOT FASHION. Peace